everlasting

10 September 2009

and for the frist time in my 18 years of life
i cried
for jaebeom's leaving
for the love of my k-pop
and i really hate antis
and i just joint fanclub of after school yesterday
i like all the kpop singers
even wonder girls
they are brillant
they spread the kpop music around the world
they are jjang!

01:33ended here

"My heart is hurting very much
My heart feels like it’s being torn apart because he is a dongseng that I love
Because I believe and love my dongseng I believe that he will return with a better appearance
Today my heart is hurting very much
Jaebeom, hyung will work harder so that when you return I can protect and hug you with a warmer embrace
Please return healthy………
I love you……………..

{WHEN I SAW THIS,I FINALLY CRIED}
[VERY EXAGERATED,BUT YEAH,THIS IS HOW I LOVE MY 2PM]
boom is a good oppa!!

Junsu:
Through the wind, fall came.
Out of nowhere, the fall scent has arrived....
The bright blue sky
It keeps making me cry.
Even the sky is making me cry
in the fall of 2009.

{i wanna give junsu a big hug:( its hard to believe the truth}

i believe jaebeom will be back
so let us just wait:(
although i always hate waiting

{this is a good comment from someone in 百度2pm组合吧

我不想这样分析，脑子里却不能停止这种想法，
然后觉得憋在心里憋得发慌。
因为一切都太快了，
从事情发生到宰范发布退队宣言再到离开韩国，
这中间的时间差太过短暂。
我觉得这个退队的举动太过轻率，
我脑中合理的解释只有两个，
一个是这是JYP的危机处理方式，
以极端对抗极端，
让宰范退队缓解anti的攻击，
给歌迷努力的空间，
也让矛头远离其它队员。
二是其实是JYP强迫宰范离队的，
因为已经开始牵涉到其他团员的工作。
如果是真的，
参照泫雅的例子，(ex-member of WG, who now joint 4minute)
不管我们做多少努力都不会有用。
我脑中只有这两种想法，
可以解释从退队宣言到离开韩国如此迅速的动作。
如果真的是宰范自己提出离队的，
若JYP曾经想过要挽留的话，
不会如此迅速地放他回美国，
至少有个劝说和劝慰的过程，
而JYP否认之前说过不会放弃宰范的话是最让寒心。
韩饭开始觉得JYP跟hottest不是站在一边的，
这更让我怀疑宰范的退出是否真的出自自愿。
事件发生才三天，
就算承受的心理压力再大，
对于自己曾经付出过的汗水和那么长的练习生涯，
是否会再清楚地考虑和观望多一点的时间，
而不是在那么短时间内就下一个断送自己职业生涯的决定？
这是我脑中挥之不去的想法，
我也想证明自己是错的，
所以尽情反驳我吧，
让我对宰范的回归有更多期望吧。

jaebeom!!!
do well in Seattle:)
we hope to see you very soon!!!

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